Whatev!

ok, so last night I was hanging out at church with Maliana and Guðrún and people, and I must have said "thats going on my blog" about ten times... but now I can't remember what exactly was supposed to go in my blog.

The following are events I remember that are blog worthy... or close to being blog worthy anyways....

So I went tanning after work and then I took the bus to church, and on the bus this guy kept looking over, and I was smiling before I ever saw him cuz I was just genuinely happy, so I don't know if he thought I was smiling at him, but he kept looking over and so did his friends.... it would have been creepy if it had been dark outside and if I wouldn't have been so freakin' happy! but because it was sunny and I was happy it was rather entertaining. So anyways, I get off the bus and dude is looking over so I flash him a big smile and then get on with my life while he sits on the bus thinking to himself "I should have totally gotten that girls number, she was freakin' hot!" and I don't care, honestly, who does he think I am! But it made me smile even more.

Got to church and all was great! talked to the girlies in YW and Sylvía and got super excited for the temple trip this summer :D

Sometime during institute and in the minutes following institute my happiness level dropped drastically! and even though I tried to keep smiling I wasn't feeling all to giddy.

So anyways, after everyone left and it was just me, Maliana and Guðrún waiting for the bus I started voicing my feeling on the chaotic state of life, maliana, eating a tootsy pop, tells me to "CALM DOWN" and I say "yeah, suck on your lolly pop will you" to which she replies "bla bla bla something about my loolypop" and I am all "just stick it in your face please" and as I am saying it I think to myself, wow that was a bit over the line on my part! and as I am thinking that both Guðrún and Maliana start laughing, maliana pretend hits me, and they both agree that I am funny when I am irritated, to which I had no reply, because I don't like being mean. I tend to be mean when I am irritated and I guess I am funny when I am mean.... or something.

Anyways, I stay pissed for a while as we walk towards the bus stop and all of a sudden Maliana is freaking out!! in a good way! she starts singing made up Pollyana songs and ends up just singing "pollyana, pollyana, pollyana!!" and I start yelling at her to shut her face and postitive attitute! but then it rubbed off on me and by the time we got home on the bus we were both singin "pollyana, pollyana, pollyana!!" and laughing our heads off.

So then we got home and since Maliana is my shrink I told her my life story and about how my plan about not caring what others think of me is not working out and then I realized the last time I acted like an idiot and didn't care what people thought was totally not a plan! it was just me, acting on a feeling I had, being sp_nt_n_s (fill in the correct letters and I am sure it will end up as a word with some sort of relevance to what I am trying to say).

So here is the plan... there is no plan! just do whatever, say whatever, follow your bliss!

whatever!

gimme some crazy please!

hmmm... so many boring posts! I think its about time I write something fun... or interesting, like in the good ol days, when money wasn't an issue and people farted in the movie theatres.
... but I can't think of anything interesting to tell about... I think my peronality has become slightly more serious (aka. boring) since the economic crash last fall, I should revert back to the months after my last heartbreak, those were some fun, interesting times. I ate whatever the heck I felt like eating (wich was a lot of food!) and I acted however I felt like acting (most of the time like an idiot, cuz I really didn't care what people thought of me!) yeah, that was a lot of good fun!
I don't particularly want to eat the world, but I want to not care what people think of me. I don't think there's anything wrong with that so I am, at this very moment, deciding to not care anymore!
My favorite new friend, Eyþór, is one of those people I am super comfortable around, I can act like an ass when he is around, when my family is around and Maliana of course! and my roomies, and Kiddý, and even around Jóhannes and Jared the other day, but that was after a party, so I was hyped up and tired so there you go.
Social experiment number 1: act like you don't care what people think, determine if people feel more relaxed around you or more weirded out by you.
results will follow asap.
Good luck to me!!

These things I need...

These things I need....

-sleep, no more staying up til 3am every night!
-to stop having my feelings effect my stomac, no more feeling sick to my stomac and feeling no need to eat. I need to eat and feel good!
-my family, I really need them, they are such a wonderful support to me!
-more hugs and such, seriously, no more being physically distant
-laughter, everyday, at least three times a day! preferably so much that I roll around on the floor at least every other day. I love to laugh, and if I am going to have wrinkles I want them to be laugh lines
-love, I need to feel loved, and wanted, and flirted with every once in a while, its nice, I like it
-less time wasted on the internet
-more time wasted on a handsome guy
-and more and more and more and more and more.......
....no, I am not needy at all....