Today I took my power back. I woke up feeling calm and safe. How wonderful is that! being able to feel safe because you know you can keep yourself safe. You don't have to rely on others to keep you safe. I know what I need to know to be able to do what is best for me. I got so mad that I considered becoming mean, to protect myself. But thats not me. I love people and I love being nice to people. However, I also get to chose who is a part of my life... and people who I find myself crying over for multiple reasons ( ... and mostly because of hurt feelings) don't get to be part of my life.
I decided that since I am waiting at McDonalds for now I would rather wait with a smile on my face! If you have no idea what I am going on about, read the previous blog entry.
... Hold the phone!! now that I think about it, I would much rather wait at Disneyland.... note to destiny: I am going to Disney land... you can find me there.
also, I love Santa Monica, beaches, piers, colors, dresses, swings, christmas and decoration lights, dancing, long hair, summer nights, stars, warm weather, dreams and New York.