Thursday, October 13, 2011
Crushes and other temporary things
Its official, I am a loser.
I signed up for one of those singles websites again and now every time I sign on to my account I think to myself, what the heck am I doing here? I always find something I don't like about the guys who write me on there, even though I am sure they are perfectly wonderful. Its just that I don't think that sort of thing is for me, finding someone online. I like meeting someone in real life, flirting, falling for someone while not knowing if they like me back. Then watching as they slowly start showing you more and more interest until finally they make a move. Its such a wonderful thing to experience. Thats what I want.
I guess I just don't believe online dating is going to work for me, and without at least some degree of faith I am afraid the whole deal is bound to fail.
But I want to fall for someone. I miss the cuddles, its so comfortable, and kissing, holy noodles! kissing is probably one of my favorite things to do.
I am however looking for someone in particular, someone who is heading in the same direction as me in life and in an eternal perspective, and I don't really think that that someone is here in Iceland.
But sometimes I wonder if I should just find someone to be with for now, someone to cuddle and laugh with and kiss when I get bored and lonely. Someone who isn't up for being too serious and doesn't mind keeping it strictly to kisses and cuddles, nothing more.
thats right, I am asking you for advice... please