Saturday, May 5, 2012
So, this is what never getting married feels like
I can't tell my parents yet though... being LDS and all, deciding not to get married is a culturally strange and unusual thing within my religion.
I enjoy my freedom, I enjoy my life and don't feel the need to find a better half. That doesn't mean I don't need a better half, I could use a lot more of "better" in my life. But I think thats something I need to do for myself. I need to work on bettering myself and not depend on some prince on a white horse to come save me and fix all my problems. My decision also doesn't mean I think "the world revolves around me" as one guy so nicely put it. I don't. And I don't expect it to ever do. That would sort of suck. Its about being happy, and staying true to yourself.
I tend to follow my gut, which I didn't used to do. The thing is I used to think I was a terrible judge of character, because I usually became good friends with people I got a weird feeling about when I first met them. Then I grew up a bit and realized those people suck at being friends, and I am actually a good judge of character. I was just so busy trying to make everyone like me that I didn't even stop and ask myself if I wanted to be surrounded by people who lie, gossip and use you.
Also, Khloe Kardashian Odom is even more of a hero in my eyes today than before. I was watching E!tv during evening shift tonight, and by watching I mean I had the TV set to that station as I worked my ass off. Don't judge me. Anyways, so this little news thing comes on talking about how Khloe and Lamar cancelled their show, but no, they didn't and bla bla bla, drama and speculations, but then they quoted Khloe saying they just needed to take a break from the show to keep things in the right perspective, with everything thats been going on in their lives lately the marriage comes first. She said she has an old fashion view on marriage and believes divorce is not an option. I honestly would be devastated if they ever got divorced.... and I usually don't care about celebs, but Khloe Odom is my exception. I literally adore her in a non gay way.