Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I believe, help thou my unbelief!

I can feel myself getting older, feel sick all the time, have problem sleeping. This shouldn't be happening. I am single, only dept I have are student loans, I have food enough, and a job... but at the same time... I am single, jobs are lost every day, especially now, food runs out, student loans are still loans, I don't own anything, I have no real education. I have dreams for the future, but they are so far away....
Then I think about what keeps me going, what makes me smile even when I am feeling overwhelmed. I know there is a God, and that he loves me. I don't like to think about where I would be if I didn't have a testimony. Day after day after day is difficult and every day I feel as though I could cry because of how hard life is. But at the exact moments I need help the most, there it is, through friends who share my standards and belief, through family home evening lessons, or youtube messages from the prophet and the apostles, from the scriptures or through prayer, from church talks, from my parents and siblings or roommates. God has angels everywhere! at the moment I feel like I am like Peter, I could walk on water, if I just had faith enough, but I am sinking because of my worries and unbelif and still Christ pulls me up every time and every time my testimony is strengthened. I hope someday I can walk on water and not worry about the strom.

1 comment:

MiriamR said...

Your soul is so beautiful Unnur. I always like what you write, very inspiring. I miss you!