Wednesday, August 10, 2011
I had work today, so I didn't really wear my dress for all that long at all! but I love the dress I wore. I got it from my sister in law not too long ago. While wearing it, I helped my brother by doing some sound work for a short film he is working on. I might post a link to it when he puts it on youtube.
I am super tired right now... and when I am super tired I am usually more emotional and all that. Right now I feel fine though, but I know I am thinking about things more than I should. I still don't understand what just happened. I still don't know when or how I will be able to fully let go. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and go to University somewhere else again. Anything to change who I meet or when I meet them. Would things be different then, or would I feel the same way about someone else? Was I supposed to go through this? Does it matter who was part of the program?
I realized how I felt on the 1st of April. What a terrible day. I wish he hadn't had a sense of humor that day, maybe things would be different then. Maybe I would be free.