Ok, I take it back, I am fine!
This is why I shouldn't blog. Because I keep having arguments with myself about how much personal stuff I should share on the interweb. And I always lose!
So I have been feeling a bit better, nothing huge changed, I think I just really needed to tell J how sorry I feel for messing up his life, to which he replied "you didn't mess up my life". Not exactly in those words, he said it way more romantically, but I am listening to common sense today, and it says I should keep his exact words to myself. Also, J would probably prefer I keep his exact words to myself. They were pretty awesome words and I am happy to keep them.
So for the past two days I have not been as easily thrown off balance and have even managed to do the dishes, hoover (vacuum) and fold laundry. Also, I am cooking again.
Progress, I must say.
I still get tired really fast and don't really want to socialize or talk to people much. Which is why I am now calling my blog my best friend. It never calls me, it never talks back, and it listens without judging. None of your comments matter... ohh wait... yeah there are no comments. Awesome.
I am totally not trying to guilt trip!