SCORE!!!

So I am totally in love with Tony Robbins, or rather, his mind and the way he makes me so excited about making changes in my life. I have never been very fond of changes until now! I think its because I am not as afraid that the changes are for the worse, in fact I am pretty sure all changes are ultimately for the better, it depends on your mindset!

Thanks Tony Robbins.

So I am setting goals.
One small one, one big one. The thought I had was to have the small one be "never make out with someone who is not my boyfriend or husband"... not that I would ever cheat on my boyfriend or husband, I just don't have a boyfriend or a husband. Still, I don't want to cheat myself! I believe I am worth more than a "one night stand" so my goal is to never make out with someone who is not willing to hold my hand in public and tell his friends and family what I am to him!
But then I thought "never" is sort of an unmeasurable goal... so instead I am now setting this goal every morning, every day of the week!

Today I will not make out with someone who is not my boyfriend.... SUCCESS!!

The big goal is to continue loving myself.
To reach this goal I will work out regularly, because I believe I am happier when I take care of my body, which is a temple.
To reach this goal I will meditate every day, because I believe it will help me stay balanced and happy by controlling my thoughts and limiting negative thoughts.
To reach this goal I will spend time with people who I respect and who respect me, people I trust and who trust me.
To reach this goal I will be totally honest with myself and others, even if it means confronting matters I would much rather ignore, but by resolving these matters and expressing myself honestly I will be able to overcome and grow instead of running away from situations and thereby letting fear and self doubt control my life.

I may add to this list over time... but this is good to begin with.
Every day I hope to be able to look at these goals and say, today I did what I needed to do to reach them!
:)

what are dreams....

What are dreams without family?
I have dreams. Dreams about helping people through my career, about becoming rich and having my huge white house by the sea. These dreams and so many more that I have mean nothing to me if I reach them alone.
I love my parents and my siblings... they make me want my biggest dream even more!
...I just realized my biggest dream, the dream that if never came true none of the other dreams would be as fulfilling. I have always known it was something I wanted, but I just admitted to myself its what I want the most! and now I am admitting it to everyone else who cares to know.
This dream is the one where I am a wife to wonderful husband who I love and respect and who treats me with love and care, and a mother of children who I want to be there for anytime, anywhere!
I want to be a wife and I want to be a mom, and I think I would be good at it!

Being a big believer in God, in answers to prayers, in the power of the law of attraction... this is me telling God and the whole world what I am hoping dreaming and praying for!

ohh the memories :D

sometimes being sick and stuck in bed isn't the worst thing... last night I was really bored and feeling like crap so I went looking for movies to watch and found "love and basketball". YAY!!! so I thought I would just watch bits and pieces because I remembered I loved it back when it came out. But then once I started watching it I realized how much I LOVE that movie... not so much the movie itself but the memories it brings back. The way I used to feel about basketball and R&B and hip hop and how I felt like I was born in the wrong body (not as in "I should have been a born a guy"... but like "I should have been born black"). It was around the time when I had my first kiss and going to Wendy's and the skating rink on the NATO base was SO exciting!! I didn't know how to put on makeup and I thought clothes made out of baby blue and baby pink fake leather (plastic) and white jeans were cool... puke!
ohh and do you remember Lucy Pearl!?! I do!!

floating in the right direction

Everyone seems to be starting relationships, getting married or having babies. I don't know what the heck is going on! I am not one of them, but I am so excited for every one of them :)
and guess what, I am totally happy and excited to be me! isn't that something to laugh about :D
I decided that when I get into a relationship I want to be happy and respected, when I get proposed to I want to be pleasantly surprised, when I get married I want to be in love and be loved. And someday I want to have babies and help them grow up to be respectable, kind and loving people.
Loving, respecting and forgiving others has never been a problem for me. I don't think I want to ever have any of those things be a problem either. I love how much I love people, how willingly I respect them and how easily I forgive them (ohh and did I mention how unbelievably humble I am, I just love that and everything else about myself too! :D ). My parents worry it may cause me more pain in life than I should have to feel. But I also think it helps me bounce back. I don't know, I may be immature.... I'll grow! but I hope I never grow more hard hearted!!
I know what I want, but more importantly I know God wants what is best for me, so what I want may be good, but his plan for me is better! I choose what he wants for me :)
Being happy is nice, I'd recommend it to anyone!