You Invisible sexy beast you!

It's actually quite fun, getting all this attention. I hope it continues. It makes for some good self esteem!

I have this recurring theme in my dreams. It's really strange actually. I dream about his home town all the time... what's that all about. I am doing fine with my feelings towards him in the daytime, I am actually doing a famous good job getting over him... but then I fall asleep and have dreams about being in his home town, visiting, living there, trying to get there, in summertime, in wintertime. I even dreamt that they had built the first LDS temple in his home town and I was going there to go to the temple. How strange is that?! and it's not like he is even there in all the dreams. Just his home town.

Last night however, I had a strange dream. I had a dream that my boyfriend (who I don't have) was cursed, so that he was invisible, but he could make people hear his voice if he wanted to. But because I was in his house when he was cursed, I was turned invisible too. I, however, could not let people hear me. So the only person I could talk to was my boyfriend, and my boyfriend was his best friend. So the three of us would hang out all the time, and they could talk, but I couldn't talk to him... just my boyfriend... and both of us were invisible. Its kind of a fun idea for a story... but I felt left out.

Maybe the fact that we seem to ignore each other so much when we are around each other in real life is doing my head in. We don't hang out alone anymore, and I don't look at him very much when we are in the same room, let alone speak to him. I don't know if he looks at me... I don't care. But I do miss his friendship. I wish I could be 100% sure I could just be his friend and not fall for him again. He makes it so easy for me to fall for him, so easy for me to get hurt. So maybe thats why I totally ignore him, even though I love his friendship and miss him a lot... So how come I am the invisible one in the dream?

The opposites attract

Life is funny. I say I want a relationship and nothing happens. I say I want to be happy and I start dating a guy who makes me anything but happy. I say I want some peace and quiet and I get loads of attention from the opposite sex.

why? why do you do this mr. Life?

Aurora Borealis in my backyard

Winter times in Iceland, what lovely times!! Last night I was working until 11pm and since the bus system in iceland is mentally unstable my brother picked me up from work. On our way home I noticed some green lights dancing in the sky. I know I should be used to the northern lights since I have lived here my whole life. But Iceland never ceases to amaze me! I love this little island and all its magic! The earth, the ocean, the sky, all of it is magical in its own way, no matter what season it is.

We decided to drive out of the city lights a bit, which is easy to do since wherever you are in Iceland you usually don't have to drive for more than 10-20 minutes to get out of town, and in this case into the darkness. The stars were magical, the northern lights were magical, the crisp cold winter air was magical!

When we had gotten out of the car and were standing on the gravel road staring at the sky I noticed there was a bit of sky that was a deep dark red! I have seen green, white, purple and pink northern lights, but never that deep red color we saw last night! it was crazy! with my bare eyes it seemed like a part of the sky was missing, like it was sucking in all the colors around it. But then when I took a photo of it, it was red. It took my eyes a while to realize they were red northern lights. Beautiful! Here are some awesome photos someone talented took and below are my photos... not the best, I know. The real deal is more like the ones you can see in the photos in the link I posted. But my photos remind me of the good times anyways!

My life on TV

Sometimes when I am walking or riding the bus and have time to just be by myself I imagine my life is a TV show. I add some more spice than it already has of course. Otherwise it would just be everyday life. There is a reason they have TV shows... its because sometimes real life is so normal that you need to spice it up with someone else's fake life.

I like to imagine my own fake life. I just wish I had the courage to make my real life really be a TV show. Do stupid, fun, exciting, different, dramatic things. Some days are more like a show than others. I like those days.

Yesterday was a day full of married couples and babies... and I was the babysitter.

It was a TV show day. It was good, and interesting, and lots of people told me having a baby on my arm suits me. None of those peoples were single young guys though... and now that I think about it the single young guys seemed to be staying clear of the babysitter... too much rubbing possibilities in their faces I think. Like I was threatening them or something.

Today my back is killing! too much holding babies... too much being single and scaring guys away by looking like I should have my own baby.

Thing is, I am fine. Today. Today I am fine with not having all these things. Wanting something and being desperate for something are two different things. I do admit I have crossed the line and been desperate once or twice or a few times before.

However, I am fine today. I am happy today. I am excited to date and make out and be happy to get a text from someone new. It makes me feel like the lead in my own TV show.

The single girl with all the possibilities in the world who has all these married happy couple young parent friends telling her how wonderful their life is... well guess what, my life is pretty awesome too.

It makes me smile in a warm sunny kind of way.

Now bring on the next adventure!!

We live so that we might feel joy

Did you know that losing weight is easy?

Well it is.

Two and a half years ago I decided I had had enough! It was easter time when I realized I was fat, single and lazy. Not at all what I wanted for the rest of my life. I had tried to lose weight for a while before that, but nothing seemed to work. I starved myself, which I would have called a successful method if all I had wanted was to lose weight, but that wasn't my goal. My goal was to be happy; Happy with the way I look, happy with the way I feel, happy in general, healthy and active. Starving yourself and denying yourself candy and cakes (or even food) may result in weight loss, but also results in a really crappy mood and poor health. I would always give up eventually and just eat and eat and eat and eat to make up for all the candy and cakes and food I hadn't had for months. I also tried to work out by running... which worked, but I hated running. it was so boring! and it hurt my hip joints. So I gave up on that too.

So basically I would lose some weight and then gain it again... plus a few pounds.

I had almost given up all together when I saw a picture of myself right before Easter 2009. It sort of lit the fire again. I wanted to be happy to see pictures of myself and happy when I look in the mirror. I wanted to be able to play and run and climb trees and hike and play sports without being embarrassed about my body. I love my body! I love me! and I deserve to be happy!

So here is what I did

- Hung up on my wall a pair of jeans I wanted to be able to fit, so that I would see them every day (I was able to take them down and wear them a few months later, and have since given them to the salvation army since they got to be too big)

- Invested in some dubious weight loss products (not sure if it was a placebo effect or if the product actually worked, but it got me started! I lost about 10lb in a month-is) after losing a few pounds the easy way, I had the motivation to keep going by changing my lifestyle.

- Played Dance dance revolution like a nut!

Some lifestyle changes:

- Started drinking lots more water!

- Stared using the stairs instead of the elevator, walking or riding my bike instead of taking the bus and playing sports and games with family and friends just to see if I would like them and have fun

- Fell in love with Solla and her amazing raw and/or organic food! Its not at all that complicated to make and it is SO good! especially the desserts!

- Learned how to make a Green Smoothie and loved it! I also started making other kinds of smoothies, and learned that they can seem really creamy and yummy if you use nut or avocado in the recipe.

- Started doing things that make me happy and thinking like a thin person: "do I need to eat this? why do I want to eat this? do I need another serving? how will I feel if I have more of this? how will I feel if I stop now?". So I never ever starved myself! but I wouldn't overeat anymore either.

What I have learned:

- Being healthy is awesome!

- I can lose weight!

- Cocoanut oil makes everything taste better and helps your body burn more fat

- Playing soccer is fun! also, dancing in your room can be a pretty good workout, but sometimes you have to make yourself stop, its just too much fun! also also, I love pole- fitness... don't tell anyone I said that.

- Its only boring to buy jeans, and pants, when you are too big to fit them. Shopping can be fun!

- I can eat KFC every once in a while and still be fine!

- Being happy is better than I imagined.

So now I am still single, but I am happy, normal sized, healthy and active. Now all I need is a good man.

This is me in May 2009

I had lost a couple of lb at that point and decided

I wanted to be able to look back and see the difference

This is me in June 2011

two years and 40bl later

Did I mention it is all about me?

My super creative friend got me hooked on book/journal making. I tried binding my own books (sowing them together by hand and making a hard cover), and that is fun. But then I saw her journal made from hopes and dreams and all things lovely and decided to buy the material needed and fashion myself a similar book.

Here is the original:

LMT's awesome book of wonderfulness

And here is a little sample from my book:

I got this card from the National History Museum by my Universtiy

It is traditional Icelandic tapestry

I got the card with the picture of the couple on it at a flea market a while ago

It's an actual love letter from a man in 1941

This is an old photo of my Grandmother

I dedicated a blog post to her and her story a while back

You can find it here if you are interested in knowing why I wrote "my Chinese Oma"

I like to eat, so I decided to dedicate the back of my journal to recipes and all things tasty

My name is Unnur... and I don't actually know if every Unnur likes to eat... but I sure do

you are welcome to post recipes of your favorite food and goodies in the comments!

I haven't started putting a lot of personal things in it. but I did pick out, cut, punch holes and organize the paper all by myself!

and my mom likes it

What if there's no parking?

Today I am in pain. I hope my dream from way back is coming true. I am jealous. I want what they have. I want to have something to add to the conversation... I have nothing to add. If I just had something, anything, I wouldn't feel so left behind. But I just feel like I am missing out on so much.
It makes me miss what I had which I knew wasn't even right. And then I think to myself ...the sooner he leaves the better! I don't want to want him anymore, not that I really want him, I just want to feel like I have some sort of something that resembles what they have in some way, even if its a cheap knockoff. Its just because I am impatient. If I weren't this impatient I would want the real thing and not settle for anything less. But I am starting to feel like all the other cars have a parking spot, and now I just want one, no matter how far away from my destination that parking spot is.

I can feel myself turning into a walking car wreck.
Tomorrow I should spend the day in the library, studying and working on projects, that way I can avoid facing myself, my loneliness and most of all them.

Shut up idiot!

Sometimes people piss me off so bad when they put stupid comments on my status on Facebook. Didn't they ever watch Bambi? if you don't have something nice to say... then shut up.
So whenever something like that happens I write a reply real fast, and before I post it, I delete it... because its usually really nasty and non friendly. After deleting it I write something more moderate. I don't want to lose friends just because they are idiots!

And now I would like to take back everything I just said because its not nice, and so I shouldn't have said it....

Crushes and other temporary things

Its official, I am a loser.
I signed up for one of those singles websites again and now every time I sign on to my account I think to myself, what the heck am I doing here? I always find something I don't like about the guys who write me on there, even though I am sure they are perfectly wonderful. Its just that I don't think that sort of thing is for me, finding someone online. I like meeting someone in real life, flirting, falling for someone while not knowing if they like me back. Then watching as they slowly start showing you more and more interest until finally they make a move. Its such a wonderful thing to experience. Thats what I want.
I guess I just don't believe online dating is going to work for me, and without at least some degree of faith I am afraid the whole deal is bound to fail.

But I want to fall for someone. I miss the cuddles, its so comfortable, and kissing, holy noodles! kissing is probably one of my favorite things to do.
I am however looking for someone in particular, someone who is heading in the same direction as me in life and in an eternal perspective, and I don't really think that that someone is here in Iceland.

But sometimes I wonder if I should just find someone to be with for now, someone to cuddle and laugh with and kiss when I get bored and lonely. Someone who isn't up for being too serious and doesn't mind keeping it strictly to kisses and cuddles, nothing more.
Any thoughts?
thats right, I am asking you for advice... please

I would rather have a candy bar thank you!

I love it when my friend tells me that even though it's not about looks I am too beautiful for him.
It makes me feel some sort of special. But at the same time, I was totally attracted... and sometimes in love.
But I don't want that anymore. I want something real.
My friend once asked me if I wanted a Dream, which is an Icelandic candy bar. I replied "no, I just want something real" not realizing she was just offering me a candy bar and not actually trying to have a deep meaningful conversation.
Maybe I just don't understand what is going on around me in the wold.
I am giving this 6 months, and then a year after that. If it doesn't turn out the way I think it will, I will simply have to become an old rich maid. According to Jane Austin's Emma, being an old rich maid is alright, in fact, it is great. But then again, Emma did end up getting happily married to the love of her life. But that was just a dream. Jane Austin never got married and ended up dying pretty young. That's reality.

Never mind, I don't want reality. Give me the freakin' Dream!!

So single, so good

Today I hung out with a bunch of my married friends. They are so cool! I wanna be married too if that means I can be as cool as them. So I decided to make an ad for myself. If you or someone you know is interested in the offer just call me. My number is +354-mar-ryme
Hope to hear from you soon!

I miss New York. Not just the shopping and my friends, but also the flirting with strangers on the subway or getting honked at when I feel good about the way I look.
In Iceland no one really honks and there's no subway and there aren't enough people on the island for me to safely flirt with strangers on the bus. If you do flirt with someone on the bus or anywhere really, you are sure to see them again... which can be super awkward. Much dislike from me towards that fact!

Also, my hair is getting longer. I love my hair!

Worst idea I ever had

Tonight my and my brothers and my sis-in law had some good times with pizza, Terra Nova and hair cutting.
My brothers love to play soccer and so they decided to go play with some friends at 10pm. Unfortunately the PS3 makes time fly so we ended up being a bit late. They were going to drive me home first and on our way out my sis-in law asked if we could take out the trash on our way to the car. But since the garbage bins were kind of far away and the guys were late, I thought I would save us time by just taking the trash along for the ride and throw it in the bin by my house.
That was definitely one of the worst ideas I ever had!

Note to self: when a trash bag is starting to stink up a whole apartment its probably not smart to put it in your car, especially when you plan on being in the car at the same time.

Note to self: if you ever don't like someone and want them to suffer, put a bag full of trash in their car.

Note to self: If you ever dislike someone and want them to suffer and you have a bag full of trash with you, before you put it in their car, ask yourself: What would Jesus do?

Note to self: just take the damn trash out straight away.

You have no sense of humor fatty!

Its time to get thin again. Lately I have been feeling sooooo fat! it may just be because I have been eating 90% junk and about 10% healthy for the past month or so. Gross!
I did work out a lot before I went to NYC and that got me into shape pretty fast, so I think I will start doing that again. I love working out and feeling good! Right now I am making some vegetable soup for tomorrow and even though its already past midnight, it makes me feel super excited to think about how I will feel after I eat vegetable soup instead of junk tomorrow.

Also, my family it awesome! Tonight was well spent with my my brother and his wife and my other brother. I always laugh so much when I am around them. But they have a really weird sense of humor, and so do I, so I often wonder how the heck I am going to find someone who will find them funny. I sort of can't picture myself growing old with someone who will just sit there and stare at us with a look on his face that says "you guys are crazy". I also can't imagine anyone getting our sense of humor. I totally know we have this strange sense of humor and are often very.... inappropriate... in a way. But I do believe in miracles... and finding someone who shares our crazy sense of humor would definitely be a miracle! a huge miracle!